CHAOS.

It has been a while.

A while since I wrote.

Life has been chaotic.

But the little science I know,I know chaos leads to creation.

Chaos leads to momentum.

Chaos leads to a change.

Chaos leads to instability.

And who says it is not good?

Like in movies, I would say it is a road.

A journey with no destinations.

With no purpose.

What the hell is purpose anyway?

So. (......)

I quit my job.This line still feels surreal. It was so heavy.

The heaviest decision of my life.

It unleashed the illusion of who I was supposed to be.

We do not realise how a place, how people, how work can affect you.

Erosion of personality? If that makes sense.

No one deserves that.

Exhaustion is the new normal and I do not accept it.

It is never slow.

It’s a gradual process of heaviness.

Layer after layer.

Layers over layers . Until you forget who you are beneath.

And to lift it , ohmyyygawd it was a mountain.

It is the first time in my life when I cannot put my emotions into words.

And words were always my peace.

There are a few times in life when you choose yourself solely.

For me, this was one of those times.

And I get the point, everyone needs to be independent but.........

But this pause.

..........................

Ugh, this pause.

This rupture. This dent.

This pause is my chaos.

IT WILL BE A CREATION.